I was thinking a bit more about the comment that I made in
my last post about being uncertain. This
idea is often misconstrued as a position of weakness. I’m not writing to defend myself as much as
to defend the position of uncertainty, so that others can find comfort there
without a feeling of guilt.
If you take Christianity seriously, then you will have to
live consistently with its basic tenets.
One of the fundamental beliefs of the Christian narrative is that God
created the universe and all within as perfect.
Then, through the fall, sin entered and corrupted, but didn't destroy or
render it glory-less. If we are in this imperfect
state then all of our facilities are also inferior, including our ability to
know or use logic perfectly.
The Catholic Scholastics, from my understanding, diverged
from other branches of Christianity at this point. Based on the teachings of Aristotle
they considered the reason of the mind as still in its perfect, God-given
state. Therefore, they reasoned (pun intended)
that it was not only possible to think your way to absolute knowledge of God and
the Christian doctrines, but it was required.
Many of the arguments of the proof of God came out of this movement.
I remember an elder at my old church saying several times
that once he became a Christian, he never doubted for one second--over the subsequent
50 years--that not only God was there, not only the Bible true but the doctrines
of his particular denomination were correct.
I remember this man’s “faith” being held up as the ideal. I too sought that kind of faith, but if I
speak candidly, never realized it. Sure,
there were times that I claimed to have this unwavering faith . . . but at the
very same time I would be awakening in the middle of the night and wonder if God
was really there after all, especially after a bad day.
However, I came to realize that it is totally consistent
with good Christian ideals if we never have total resolution of doubt. Doubt is not the arrows of Satan as some
would envision it. But doubt is the
Siamese twin to logic, God-given logic.
You can’t search for truth unless you have some doubt about the position
you are standing in. You can never find
truth if you don’t search for it and the searching is prodded along by doubt.
So, the problem with the evangelical type of faith is that,
like the forementioned elder, if they were born in Marrakesh, they would be 100% sure that
the Islamic narrative was true, and if they had been born in Salt Lake City,
they would be 100% sure the Mormon concept of history was the true one.
So, uncertainty isn't that wishy-washy place that many see
as John Bunyon’s “Doubter’s Castle.”
When we have intellectual integrity we eventually arrive at this place
of uncertainty and there is no place else to really stand with integrity.
But this uncertainty isn't a mutual place resting in the
center of a circle with equal distance to theism, atheism, pantheism and animism,
all which rest on the rim. You can have relative certainty, where one position dominates. I am a Christian and I have great confidence in
that. Can my mind consider the remote possibility
of a universe that sprang out of nothing and produced the reality that we
know? I find it absurd, but not
unthinkable. The moment I consider it as impossible even to consider, then at
that juncture I cease to become a man and I become a machine.
I will close this thought with one last comment and that is
I consider the atheists as the worst at this.
They, dogmatically, cannot allow themselves to even consider the possibility
of a personal origins to the universe. It becomes philosophical and sociological for
them and it is not a function of higher intelligence or better logic. It is the
same force that makes a middle school girl use the term “amazing” so much or a
boy playing sports. It has to do with
social acceptance and in many “free thinking” intellectual circles it is
(unwritten) forbidden to consider that God may be there, and if he is there, he must be a name for the mysteries in the universe like Carly Sagan alluded to.
So the problem with habitual doubters is that they are
searching for a position of certainty, thinking that anything less than that is
not just inferior but evil. When no human can honestly reach the point of
certainty they resort to one of two options. They either throw up their hands
in despair, in a Descartian way saying it is impossible to know anything . . . or
they do what most evangelicals do. Most
evangelicals believe that faith (vs doubt) is a spiritual exercise (which
really means emotional). So they just
close their eyes at this point, lift their hands into the air and just “believe.” They say things like, “I know that God is in
my heart and that settles it!” They feel very proud about this exercise in mental laziness. What they
are really doing is giving up the intellectual part of their being that God has
given and meant to be our guide. Any belief system on the earth is capable of doing the same, closing your eyes and closing
your mind and just believing that particular belief system is true (even it is
alien abductions) because you know it is true in your heart.
But God smiles on the doubter because the doubter is the thinker, the one who wrestles with God, rather than he who slumbers in the haystack.
2 comments:
You can’t search for truth unless you have some doubt about the position you are standing in.
This is an excellent point. It may seem paradoxical, but it really helped me to realise that being a lover of truth *required* embracing doubt.
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